How Can I Forget??

yessssss, like this titled !!
How can I forget it??
DAMNNNNN I forget about my father's b'day :''''''''''')
how can???? aaaaaaaa
what a pitty daughter I am :")
really very very don't remember that :")
ehhmm how can I forget my father's b'day but I remember about my biased b'day :")
really I'm so hurt :")
my eyes tearing so much :")
I go to the toilet to cry. I just see my father dissapointed when He tell me what event today even, He want to cry :")
aaaaaa really so sad....
I can't look my father's sad :")
I just knew his b'day at 21.00 :")
Then I wait my sister go home after she work to buy b'day cake.
But there isn't shop cake which open :")
So I just buy some cake to make a wish and blow candy b'day :")
aaaaaaaa really This is my fault :")
sorry, when I write this blog my eyes just tearing suddenly :")
I know what your feel dad, when someone not remember about your b'day it's so sad right? :")
yessss I have feel that, so I know what you feel dad :")
aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa
I HATE MY SELF !!!
sorry dad for forget about your b'day. How can I be a good daughter? :")
Next year I don't want to see your dissapointed face and your tears eyes :")
next year we will celebrate your b'day with MAXIMAL prepare :")
so sorry dad :") :") :")